Yesterday decided to tell him. I dun want any regrets in future that i am the bad person. I want to be happy and i rather give up and be sad now rather in the future he blames mi for other things. He said that i had made him suffered so much once he knows me, I rather leave than been blame. I also dun want him to get into all these problems. Since i am so lousy and useless he dun need me at all why should i still be stuck in this situation? He got a better choice in front of him. I am the one who is now stopping him from choosing it. So i am the bad person now.

Since he cant bare to leave and put off the suffered hardship with her why must i still stuck in between. He just need one more step to complete his ideal family. Just get the traditional marriage and that's all. He said before i am a nothing person to him but she is his wife, legal wife afterall. So wat am i. Simply meaning mistress isit? These insults i really dun want to listen. The last quarrel lead me to think of all these.

I dun want to be the bad person. I dun want to be the one who stopped him. i also dun want to listen something bad from the future. Such as "you were the one who led me to all these, you stopped me from that marriage, you were the one who force all these out, you were the one who made me suffered." At that time wat can i say? Haha, just do nothing lol and listen to all these words. Why let me wait for 4 yrs and end up sufferings, why let him give up what he has now and let him got the chance to tell me thse words. Why let me have the chance to be the bad person and blame me next time. I dun want all these and moreover i really dun want to be any bad guy in this situation. I rather give up and be sad now.

He can chase her out of house now meaning he can easily chase anyone off. He already asked me off the house during many quarrels it means that in future he can do this anytime again. Even is his wife can also be easily chase off the house.

A person to be rational is to think now and dun make one regret in future. To e successful is to stop negative things and head for the positive. To make more people happy and not so many sad things is to make sure the decision now is always the best. To learn is to get wrong first and learn from it. So now i learnt it so i should not get into deeper wrongs. Not to be a weakling, is to get stronger. Face the fact and be brave.